When I woke up this morning, my first thought was of Jason. And since then, I have had this growing knot in the pit of my stomach. Which leads me to wonder...am I falling for him? Is it gas (lol) or am I feeling this way because it's Valentines Day?
Let's review how I feel...I respect this man. I listen to him and actually can debate opinions without fighing. I admire him. He has built a wonderful life for himself and knows what he wants out of it. He works hard and gives his all. Most importantly, I trust him. I know that he would be there if I needed him. Trust is an issue for me because I lump it in being dependent on someone. And I am very independent. I try not to rely on others for help. But he has shown me that he wants to help and I am learning to accept it. He supports me in the decisions I make. He listens to me ramble on about my fears and doubts and while he will offer advice, he doesnt try to fix my problems.
So I can assume we can rule out gas!
But is it love?
I have no butterflies for him. I have based all my past relationships on the butterfly factor. Can you have love without butterflies? Can my feelings (see above) create a loving relationship, without having animalistic passion? In the end, do I want the butterflies or a man who I trust with my life? And dont butterflies fade?
OR...is it this stupid day and I think I have to feel something for him because its the day of love? Or am I now more confused then when I started this blog?
Maybe I will wait to see what gift I get and decide then?!? Just kidding!
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4 comments:
butterflies die lol trust is alive till someone kills it or you sure its not gas
I will let you know after this weekend!!...but the knot is still there...I wonder if that's good or bad?!?
well, first drink some mylanta
I would rather live with trust and good conversation then butterflies!!
Just for the record, it was probably gas!! LOL...things did not go well and I havent talked to him since Saturday morning...
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