go mandy

..Collin actually 3 bites of corn tonight .... I guess this is why they invented Flintstones vitamins

perhaps I will make him start drinking some v-8 or something ... perhaps

Nice day

Yesterday i had a very nice non-mommy day. I'm going to be a bridemaid in my cousin's wedding. So the girls me at her house and went to david bridal to spend way to much money on a dress to wear only once(lol). With Daniel being home he keep Ally, I rode with my future cousin(she's marrying another cousin of mine)so we did our bridemaid duties, which was hard for me because i'm a tight ass. We went to the mall to eat at the food court. I called Daniel to check in, and to let him know i was not heading home. After eatting me and brittany (the cousin i rode with) goofed at the mall for 3 hours. No point of this blog really:)

PLEASE....

...let Collin stay in HIS bed ALL NIGHT ..... please please!!!!



we all need a good night sleep, him included.

We were not "co-sleepers" till the beginning of January when Collin finally got a "big boy bed" .... and now, because of extreme laziness on my part, he finds his way into my bed and stays there in the middle of the night.

I have nothing against co-sleeping, if that what works for you, but it doesn't work for me ... because the the most important part of that word is NOT being done when he is in my bed: "SLEEP" !!!!

That's all folks...

After a really bad weekend, Jason and I broke up last night. I am having mixed emotions about it today, however. I am finally able to cry about it and have been doing so off and on most of today. But I dont underdstand why. Sadness over being alone again? Sadness because I was starting to feel something for him? I mean, I cant be that upset, it was 4 months not 4 years. It was a rocky, difficult relationship...because we live so far away and only really saw each other every few weeks.

So then why the tears? Am I sad about what could have been? I am not one to wonder what might have been..so I dont know if thats it..maybe its the loss of a friendship, because we hadnt really moved past that point.

I know deep down it wasnt going to be a life long relationship...so then why do I bother with the tears?

ME

I'm In a really bad mood. I've had a really bad week, and when I found myself thinking it couldn't get worse I got hit by a SUV lol.

I can not continue to live in a funk. It's not who I am, It's not who I want to be. I'm stronger than than I believe or I think lol. I will be in control of my own mood, i will not depend on anyone else to tell me it'll be OK, or to make me feel special or loved even if it's a day called Valentine.

So in a little while I'm going to go out and have my hair cut, and maybe get a medi and pedi. I will go car browsing, and maybe clothes shopping. I will leave my darling 3 yr old at home with my asshole husband. I will be like a man and think of number 1. And if my not better half has a problem with that he can pack his shit up and call his mommy to pick him up.

Noise

.....we have recently (and by recently I mean the last month or two) ... adding on whimpering with the whining ..... OH and he just found the harmonica I stupidly bought him for christmas .... so, once again, its all my fault!!!!!!!!

Love, gas or just this stupid "holiday"?

When I woke up this morning, my first thought was of Jason. And since then, I have had this growing knot in the pit of my stomach. Which leads me to wonder...am I falling for him? Is it gas (lol) or am I feeling this way because it's Valentines Day?

Let's review how I feel...I respect this man. I listen to him and actually can debate opinions without fighing. I admire him. He has built a wonderful life for himself and knows what he wants out of it. He works hard and gives his all. Most importantly, I trust him. I know that he would be there if I needed him. Trust is an issue for me because I lump it in being dependent on someone. And I am very independent. I try not to rely on others for help. But he has shown me that he wants to help and I am learning to accept it. He supports me in the decisions I make. He listens to me ramble on about my fears and doubts and while he will offer advice, he doesnt try to fix my problems.

So I can assume we can rule out gas!

But is it love?

I have no butterflies for him. I have based all my past relationships on the butterfly factor. Can you have love without butterflies? Can my feelings (see above) create a loving relationship, without having animalistic passion? In the end, do I want the butterflies or a man who I trust with my life? And dont butterflies fade?

OR...is it this stupid day and I think I have to feel something for him because its the day of love? Or am I now more confused then when I started this blog?

Maybe I will wait to see what gift I get and decide then?!? Just kidding!

Thank you..for not speaking for me...

So today a friend asked me to babysit her two boys this afternoon. I said yes..knowing this is going to turn into a every Tuesday deal. I also knew it wasnt going to go well when she said she was sending alot of homework with her oldest...do I look like a childcare homework service?!?

Anyways..to the point of this blog...ANOTHER friend took it upon herself to tell the above mentioned friend that I really am not interested in babysitting and probably wont be doing it every week...which them prompts friend 1 to call me and be bitchy saying she doesnt need me to tonight...of course I dont know why she is canceling..until friend 2 calls and explains what she said...

Who the hell does she think she is to speak for me? Granted I dont want to babysit every week, I didnt mind doing it tonight..

And now friend 1 is pissed at me..who I've had a few issues with anyways and friend 2 made it worse..WTF?!?

Do I let it go? Do I say something to friend 1? What?

Grocery Store

..... one of the luxaries of having Collin in preschool is going to the grocery store KID FREE in the morning.

The only ones there are other moms and our lovely older citizens. This morning I guess wasnt a schedules grocery store run for the local assistant living places so it was just moms and employees stocking the shelves. This is one downside to shopping at 9 am... they are restocking - which means the produce and the meat departments are not fully stocked yet... but ya take the good with the bad I guess.

I navigated my way thru the aisles, getting much more then what was on my list (not that I actually HAD my list... you see I am the Queen of making lists but leaving them at home/in the car, etc). So as I am going along I pretty much stay on pace with a few others, we pass each other, I smile or say "hello" or whatever and they basically ignore me.

So, here is my thing .... is it part of the southern small town thing that I am the outsider and arent worthy of at least a nod back? Is it that I wore my LSU sweatshirt and for some reason everyone was OSU Fans? Did I smeel bad? Do I come across bitchy/negative even when I dont mean to be??

My bottom line is this: I am over people, its as simple as that. Its all I can do to get thru a day with a whiny 3 year old out here away from family (and apprently friends) and a husband who travels. So why bother adding more misery/self pity, whatever it is, to the fire when I can just be as happy alone without being "social?"

And what is even worse is that since I went thru the self checkout line I talked to no one ... I guess the teacher that got Collin out of the car this morning will be my only human contact today.

sickies

My mom is now sick. It started with other family moved to me hit ally then my dad and to end the cycle or to restart it my mom now has it. Not only do I not want it back, ally isn't over it. Is it totally wrong for me to say umm don't come over snotting all over the place keep your germs at home where they belong.
Not only does she have a cold but she is the worst sick person in the world. I know your sick the first 10 phone calls kinda gave me this idea but by the 11th call I'm over it. What do you want a cookie lol. (ring ring) Hello (coughing and in a voice best described as a bad Hollywood version of a dying person) Krystal what (cough) are you doing?

Umm giving Ally her meds and trying to get her to lay down

(her again) oh i want some potato chips (snot cough snot)

(me) umm well go get you some

(her again) If you loved me you would go get some(cough sigh groan snot)

(me) mom i can't I'm dealing with ally and it's raining i don't need to take ally out in it

(her again) well i see you don't care I'm sick (groan sigh snot)

(me) bye mom

i mean wtf is that all about fuck it

Is it just me?

Is it just me or does grandparents make the whole parenting thing harder? I love my parents ...hell i like Daniel's parents, but why must they interfere with me raising my daughter. If i fuss at her to eat shouldn't someone support me, if I tell her to pick up her toys why tell me I'm mean? And omg how spoiled should she be $40 for a just because toy is to much. And if i buy myself a $20 purse don't ask me what i bought her hell you just spent $40 on a toy she doesn't need. And please don't think I'm going to keep the toy forever if it breaks its gone simple as that not being bitchy or anything but damn why should i keep a broken toy when she has about a million other toys that are not broken in her room.
And while I'm at it if i tell my spoiled brat to clean her room don't ask me if I'm going to clean my room really wtf is wrong with you! Come on really pull your head out of your ass and realise your not helping her turn into a decent human being your encouraging her to be a spoil brat

Why I bother...

Ok..so now Mandy has me hooked on blogging...does this mean that I am easily led to do something or think that I have a lot to say and need to make sure someone knows...hmm...I think that will be another blog another time...

This blog however is about my kids and cleaning...and as the title states..why I bother! I have decided that since I am not interested in watching the Super Bowl, I am going to clean my kids rooms...now I like to think of myself as a fairly clean person until I step into their room...how is it if there is a no food past the kitchen rule in place, I find french fries under the bed? EWW..How does dog hair get into the toy box? How many balls are there to the Hungry Hungry Hippo game? Because I am certain I have found 1045. And as I write this they are in the bathroom washing out the hairy toy box and now the bathroom is flooded...which begs me to ask...if I hadnt been cleaning their room, would my bathroom now need Noah to survive? Why do I bother?

I have recently learned that I am not supposed to nag my children to clean their room. That children have very little control over their lives and if I wouldnt want them to clean my room, I shouldnt clean theirs or ask them to clean it. Have you fallen out of your seat yet? I assure you that this advice came from someone who actually went to school to advise parents on how to raise another human being. The point being they will eventually get so fed up with living in a dirty mess they will clean it themselves...HA HA HA...see, my children are male, which means they will grow to be men...please someone show me one man who cleans up after himself and I will allow my kids to live as they chose...Now I have fallen out of my seat!!

Planes, Trains and "seeing" an engineer...

So, for some unknown reason...lets go with boredom...I have decided to watch a show about train crashes...yes, I am sick like that, I love high speed chases (come on, I am from Cali)...and while this wouldnt be so unnerving, I should mention that I am "seeing" a train engineer...I may never sleep while he works again...

A little back history...in case, like me, you are bored and give a rats ass...

Jason and I started seeing each other about 4 months ago...I say seeing each other because I am unsure if we are "dating" we go on dates...we are only dating each other ( well on my side anyways) yet we are no where near being "in love" (yes, we've had that discussion)

This certainly was easier in high school..you knew you "belonged" to someone...class ring, lettermans jacket, eating lunch together, you wore his football jersey on Fridays before the big game and the endless note passing. In this day and age, I am unsure if he is "mine"...I most certainly know that I do not know if he is "the one" for me. I enjoy him but we are very different from each other. ..he is very GQ and I am very Target...which leaves to me wonder, do opposites really attract?

All about me...

My name is Carrie...mom to two boys..Rob, 10 and Nick, 5...mostly well behaved. I am about to move to a new town over the summer to begin school to become a respiratory therapist. I was married for almost 13 years and am going through a very friendly divorce.

I've recently started dating...which in your 30's is not like it used to be. So prepare to hear alot about it!!

That is all....

Nap Time

...so, as some of you know, I have been questioning if and how you get a three year to take a nap... the consensus has been "you dont" ... fine, but it seems all of us are at least trying to get them to at least have quiet/down time ... today Collin actually slept .. wooohooooo .. and so did I. I would like to say it felt good, but I woke up more tired and feeling like I had even less energy .. good thing I have nothing to do but be lazy tonight!

Eric is somewhere, Richmond perhaps?? .. I cant keep up with his schedule..its on the fridge ... how I would love to be in a Marriott Courtyard.. ALONE for a night!!

life is crazy

My lil' dumpling is sick. And while she is sick the amount of food she will consume is limited so far today she has eatten a banana, some cheese, a cucumber, and a chocolate lil debbie cake. Does this make me a bad mom probably do i care nope. How do you get a whiny 3 yr old to eat her meats? why would you expect her to eat something that may or may not hurt her to eat? I guess these questions should only to my mom and all those parents who hold so much faith in a balanced diet at all times.

Mom accomplishment of the day

Collin was fed both breakfast and lunch in the kitchen at their appropriate times ... and both were something I actually made and were warm.

I can no longer get him to take naps .. but I managed to get him down for "quiet time" in front of Thomas after lunch time.

As for as I am concerned .... I can screw up the rest of the day ... these are three milestones for me .. at least lately with him ... and like George Constanza I want to end things on a high note!

Hey

I guess its time to write my "intro" too.

My name is Mandy, I am 34, married to Eric (who is an airline pilot) and mom to Collin who is 3 and I am also liter box changer to our cat Beveaux. We are currently in North Carolina and cant wait to figure out our next phase in hopes of getting the hell out of this area of the country.

I am very opinionated and stubborn .. those two things can either work great together or VERY bad together. I love the fall when its college football time, I have a yarn addiction, I am still pissed Gilmore Girls is off the air and I think income taxation is one of the biggest threats to our personal liberties as well this Republic we live in.

I have BA degree in psych from the University of Nebraska .. I would love to go get my masters degree but soley for the purpose of furthering my education and getting an advanced degree not to really do anything with it career-wise.

I am the oldest of four children. I love my South Louisiana heritage and I will buy anything with a Fleur de Lis on it. I am a non-practicing Catholic and let my "catholic guilt" get the better of me at times. I am not ineterested in being quoted the bible in the hopes that those words will actually change my mind on things like evolution, being "saved" and being told Catholicism is a cult involiving the worship of Mary.

Ok, thats it for now.

-mandy

Hello

Hi, I'm Candy mom to Alex and Ryan , wife to Glen and servant to two spoiled felines. Currently I am going through some life changs and I'm trying to learn how to be my own person not just a wife or a mother. I don't really have to many hobbies right now unless snow shoveling counts.