I should get an award

it's 12:30am and Ally is up eating cool ranch Doritos's mom of the year right here

So....HI

How have everyone been? It has been quiet around here.
Well here everything has been quiet and peaceful after my mom and cousin got out of the hospital, everything has been very relaxed and chilled. Or maybe i'm the one who chilled it seemed like I was taking everything and placing it on my shoulders where it didnt belong lol

so krys hows the baby baking going?

mandy whats been happening with you?

carrie any hot guys your way?

candy how's the job?

ramble

I feel the, need to blog/ ramble I guess. Life has been iffy here lately, but I'm still smiling. My darling daughter has been great through all of it, a real trooper, when times are a little tough she really shows incredible spirit. Makes me realize that yes it will get better, it has to because I have this little being depending on me for a positive role model, She is depending on me to show her a example of a strong woman, and yes that example has to be me.

So on top of all the hoopla happening i have developed a imaginary kidney infection. I have all the pain of a kidney infection but my cultures all comes back negative , maybe its all in my head.
I have a appointment tomorrow for more test ,fun times ladies, but I started my period yesterday yuck TMI. well anyway I guess I'm done rambling now.

Btw spell check makes me feel stupid.

go mandy

..Collin actually 3 bites of corn tonight .... I guess this is why they invented Flintstones vitamins

perhaps I will make him start drinking some v-8 or something ... perhaps

Nice day

Yesterday i had a very nice non-mommy day. I'm going to be a bridemaid in my cousin's wedding. So the girls me at her house and went to david bridal to spend way to much money on a dress to wear only once(lol). With Daniel being home he keep Ally, I rode with my future cousin(she's marrying another cousin of mine)so we did our bridemaid duties, which was hard for me because i'm a tight ass. We went to the mall to eat at the food court. I called Daniel to check in, and to let him know i was not heading home. After eatting me and brittany (the cousin i rode with) goofed at the mall for 3 hours. No point of this blog really:)

PLEASE....

...let Collin stay in HIS bed ALL NIGHT ..... please please!!!!



we all need a good night sleep, him included.

We were not "co-sleepers" till the beginning of January when Collin finally got a "big boy bed" .... and now, because of extreme laziness on my part, he finds his way into my bed and stays there in the middle of the night.

I have nothing against co-sleeping, if that what works for you, but it doesn't work for me ... because the the most important part of that word is NOT being done when he is in my bed: "SLEEP" !!!!

That's all folks...

After a really bad weekend, Jason and I broke up last night. I am having mixed emotions about it today, however. I am finally able to cry about it and have been doing so off and on most of today. But I dont underdstand why. Sadness over being alone again? Sadness because I was starting to feel something for him? I mean, I cant be that upset, it was 4 months not 4 years. It was a rocky, difficult relationship...because we live so far away and only really saw each other every few weeks.

So then why the tears? Am I sad about what could have been? I am not one to wonder what might have been..so I dont know if thats it..maybe its the loss of a friendship, because we hadnt really moved past that point.

I know deep down it wasnt going to be a life long relationship...so then why do I bother with the tears?